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rough night, huh?

the winds of my life are blowing strangely and the tidings they bring strike fear and worry in my heart

love and loss being so hand in hand terrifies me to my core on a night like tonight

fire and fury burning through wicked groves on the horizon

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open hand leaves me wanting for closed fist, bashing my skull against the pavement

just fucking- no. leave me craving the release of bees, oozing honey from structured combs through forgotten bones

wake up as flames lick closer, collapsing their eternity into a fleeting spark, curtains take alight

.

i am all that i am, nothing could ever compromise that

but

fleeting feelings like bugs on the windshield, guts splattered and blinding me to the poor deer in headlights

tires screeching, no impact, quickly departing flakes of psyche leave refuse in my wake, fury polluting memories lost long ago to doldrums of days unending

neutralized poisons leave shattered pathways through hearts ablaze, until all left is flailing between misery and bliss

do grips held tight ever loosen, or is that not what we wanted in the first place?

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